It’s no secret that I have been without a car for quite a while (read more here). After about 34 months (almost 3 years), I finally purchased one recently. This 2-month long process of searching finally yielded a car. I am excited to go places freely (and without the aid of Uber or Lyft).
But that’s the tip of the iceberg.
I’m getting married to a lovely woman in about 13, 12, 11 days (but I’m not counting or anything, lol). Our engagement was just a little over two months long. When we tell people, they say, “Wow. That’s fast.” But hey: if you can get married, why wait, right?
Also, I resigned from my teaching position recently, after having taught for 10 years. Nothing bad happened, but it was just time for me to achieve more (we’ll talk more about that in posts to come). I left to launch my own media company.
One more thing: I signed up for a part time job that will allow me the opportunity to travel the world for minimal cost! I’m SUPER excited because I have wanted this for so long. It’s finally here. Woohoo!
Whew! It’s been quite a whirlwind of fantastic things that have been happening, one right after the other. I am indeed alive in amazing times…..or it may seem. My recent string of successes have caused me to feel something abnormal: fear.
It’s scary to see the things that you have hoped, prayed, pondered, contemplated and fasted for come to fruition. It’s as though God’s up there, reading my checklist and crossing a line straight through each item. It. Is. Freaking. Overwhelming.
A part of me just can’t seem to wrap my brain around it all. I mean, I should be happy, right? Exuberant, even. But instead, I am fearing, something. Maybe I’m looking for the other shoe to drop. “All of this good stuff must come to an end eventually, right,” I thought to myself. But I’m being unfair to myself.
But what if the shoe never drops? Then I would’ve wasted time looking ahead for something that never came. In other words, I wouldn’t be enjoying the journey.
Surely, I am in the middle of a wheel, but I will continue to trust in God.
Until Next Time,
Love and Peace
-Herbie #LoitdMediaGroup
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