The current post stems from a conversation I had with one of my brothers. Enjoy.
When we are first born, we are taught to do things, and then we do them. This is emulation. This is how we initially learn, but there also comes a time when that learning process should change. Eventually, you should learn as a result of trial and error. We call this learning from your own mistakes.
The transition from one school of thought to the other has been a lengthy one for me. For a vast majority of my life, I’ve been busy looking at what the next person is doing, instead of what’s immediately in front of me. I should’ve been doing my own work.
That should be understandable, right? I just got stuck watching everyone else do his or her work, and didn’t pay attention to mine. What is my “work” anyway? What am I supposed to be doing with the talents I have been given? I thought I knew, but I was confused (again, this was because I was looking at what others were doing).
Which brings me to my point: If you’re not careful, you’ll become confused as to what you’re supposed to be doing.
If someone were to ask me seven years ago what I was supposed to be doing, I would’ve said, “Owning my own studio, with my brother, and recording my stuff [music].” I’ve had these grand plans for my brother and I since we first started playing. As of right now, that’s not in the cards for us these days. He and I are still playing music, but just not together (I readily admit that this makes me sad, but it’s not time for that: yet).
Right now is the season for me to figure out how I will support my family in the near future and thrive financially. I don’t know what there is to be said about if we will ever own our own studio. I can’t say one way or another. I would love to, but it takes more than love to operate a successful business.
But there is hope. He is doing his work, and I’m sorting through mine. For the first time in my life, I find myself thinking of what will I do. This is major for me. In this season of fresh starts, I am doing so many things, most of which I didn’t anticipate doing (like blogging, for instance).
I believe that I will truly know what I’m supposed to be doing, as a result of self-discovery and listening to my heart. When it’s the right time, I’ll know.
That’s for sure.
Until next time,
Love & Peace.