Work your ass off.
Get paid for it.
You can’t do that.
What are you thinking?
She doesn’t love you.
You do remember what happened the last time, right?
You ain’t really doin’ shit.
You don’t love her.
But what will people think?
Do you really think this’ll work?
How do you think you can take care of a family? You can barely take care of yourself.
Good evening. These are just some of the voices that bounce around in my head, on any given day. Sometimes, these voices are quieted by work, reading, music and prayer. Part of me really wants to give into the voices, but something inside of me knows, without question that I cannot.
Anyone who knows me will tell you that I’m a devout follower of the teachings of Jesus (this is an exasperatedly long way of saying that I am a Christian). I don’t flaunt it (as if it’s such a thing to flaunt), but I am. Yet and still; these voices will not shut up!
Let’s stop for a moment: Those people who have known God their entire lives will say something like, “You’re not praying enough,” or “you aren’t doing something right.” This post is probably not for them. Instead, this post is for the person who loves God, but hasn’t reached the “holier than thou status” on Facebook. Yes, this post is for you.
I thought if I prayed, gave God my time, money, talents, food (fasting) and have crazy faith, that I would be rid of these ridiculous voices. But how do I get rid of them, then? I’ll tell you: choose.
I choose to read something that will lift my spirits. Sometimes, I have to remind myself to look for such things throughout the day. Is is hard to do sometimes? Yes. But is it necessary? Of course.
Ultimately, I know that I will be just fine. I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, in this moment; that’s talking to you!
Until next time,
6 thoughts on “can someone please turn this down?”
This is my first time reading your blog. The Spirit must have sent me here because I feel the exact same way, especially today. Those voices can tear you down and some days you think you can’t make it. But having read this, I know I am not alone and that it will be okay. You are a blessing to us all Herbie. Thank you so much.
Jennifer, thank you for reading. I really appreciate it. Those voices can drown out all of the good stuff that’s going on within and around us. Those voices aren’t telling the truth, and sometimes it’s hard to remember that.
When we feel like that, it can make us feel isolated from everyone else, but then again, not really. You know that you’re not the only one that’s going through this, but you feel alone because it’s only happening to you (at that moment).
I’m glad that you know that you’re not alone in the struggles of life. I am honored to share my thoughts, in hopes of helping people.
I know this may sound simplistic but it took me until 50 to really get this attitude down. I always tell myself, as I’m sure you do too, that God has a plan for me. Then when those doubts and voices creep in I remind myself that if they’re right and everything falls apart I’ll have plenty time to feel awful while I pick myself back up but for now, in this moment, I’m going to go forward and be happy and believe if I have an open, loving heart I’ll be okay. Hope this is helpful.
You’re right, M. He indeed, does have a plan for us. I love what you said about, “I’m going to go forward and be happy and believe if I have an open, loving heart I’ll be okay.” That’s so encouraging! Thank you for sharing and reading.
Choose to read, or choose to share with someone else. Bringing things out of the dark into light can be helpful as well.
That’s so true, Nate. I hear the same word in your statement: choose. Thanks for reading.