While this passage doesn’t exactly sum up my feelings, it did get me thinking about my success. I am generally, genuinely happy for people who are doing well (in what I want to do). I cheer people on because I like seeing folks happy, excelling at what they want. My problem is that I want to excel, too. It’s not a sense of entitlement (at least I don’t think so), but a yearning to excel.
When I see others excel, sometimes I wonder when or if I’ll excel too.
Let me say this: I expect a lot of me (as I’ve been told by my wife). I don’t think it’s too much, but I’ve been told to “sit the f*ck down somewhere,” on occasion (LOL). When I think about my new business, I feel as though I should be doing “this” or “that.” Whenever I have down time, I’m always asking myself,”What can I be doing right now?” I do too much sometimes: I get it.
But reading this scripture reminded me in the most in-your-face yet tender manner that I just have to relax and rely on God. However hard it is for me, I shouldn’t be worried about what someone else is doing. Just relax. It’s cool.
Besides, how do I know that I’m NOT doing what I’m supposed to be doing at this very minute? Maybe I am.
Maybe I’m the only one who feels this way. Maybe not.
Until Next Time,
Love & Peace