While this passage doesn’t exactly sum up my feelings, it did get me thinking about my success.  I am generally, genuinely happy for people who are doing well (in what I want to do).  I cheer people on because I like seeing folks happy, excelling at what they want.  My problem is that I want to excel, too.  It’s not a sense of entitlement (at least I don’t think so), but a yearning to excel.

When I see others excel, sometimes I wonder when or if I’ll excel too.

Let me say this: I expect a lot of me (as I’ve been told by my wife).  I don’t think it’s too much, but I’ve been told to “sit the f*ck down somewhere,” on occasion (LOL).  When I think about my new business, I feel as though I should be doing “this” or “that.”  Whenever I have down time, I’m always asking myself,”What can I be doing right now?”  I do too much sometimes: I get it.

But reading this scripture reminded me in the most in-your-face yet tender manner that I just have to relax and rely on God.  However hard it is for me, I shouldn’t be worried about what someone else is doing.  Just relax.  It’s cool.

Besides, how do I know that I’m NOT doing what I’m supposed to be doing at this very minute?  Maybe I am.

Maybe I’m the only one who feels this way.  Maybe not.

Until Next Time,

Love & Peace

-Herbie