There’s a strange occurrence in my life: I have friends.  Before you think I’m going nuts, just hear me out.  I had a complex for much of my life: I thought that no one could out-give me, out of my group of friends.  Honestly, I felt like no one could love like I could, and I felt cheated.  I would ask God, “I’m a good friend.  Don’t I deserve someone who can match my efforts?”  While I have been waiting for His answer, I have come to this conclusion: Yes.

That’s not the half of it, though.  The truth was that I attracted such people into my life.  I couldn’t tell the double-agents from those who were true because I wasn’t whole.  Through much prayer and work, God has made me whole.  I can see things more clearly than I ever have and people who don’t belong in my life are simply falling away.  This is an awesome feeling of which I do not know how to handle yet; Which brings me to my point.

Currently, the friends that I am surrounded by are those that reflect me: Non-judgmental, loving, caring and wholesome.  They care for me as much as I care for them.  They love me and my stuff.  This speaks volumes to me because I always freely gave that type of love, but secretly thought I didn’t deserve it in return.  These friends give with no strings attached or hidden agendas.  I feel full of gratitude. 

Maybe this is what’s meant by, “According to your faith, be it unto you,” (Matthew 9:29b KJV).  This journey called life has me at a loss for words.

Until next time,

Love & Peace

-Herbie