Maybe now’s a good time to tell you about something that happened long ago. Back in 2nd grade, I was given a homework assignment that said I had to write 10 sentences talking about myself. Certainly, I thought that this would be a miniscule task for then 2nd grade Herbie. Well, I was wrong, a little.
At the time, I had just started creating the blueprint of my low self esteem wall. I remember it clearly. I wrote this:
- I am dumb.
- I am stupid.
(I forgot the rest of the sentences.)
I turned in my homework the next day. While I’m not sure of what I transpired (it’s been almost 30 years ago), I do know that that moment has haunted me to this day. I’m embarrassed to share this childhood episode with you even now. Maybe it’s because I still see that little boy, standing there, believing nothing good about himself.
Where did these thoughts come from? I have no idea. My parents have never spoken such words to me. But, nevertheless, those thoughts were there. When I was asked why I wrote this, I can remember thinking, “I did write in complete sentences, right?” I don’t remember my exact response, but I’m sure it ended with a shrug.
We all battle things. I’m not sure why, but we all do. I don’t know why low self esteem has been my fight. As an adult, I have and continue to work very hard to accept who I am. And I maintain, mostly. When times are hard, I encourage myself to focus on the great things that I have going for me, and to be attentive to those that have been set to my hands. So, in other words, I tell myself to focus (on me).
As a result of fighting through my own struggles, I have unknowingly built a new wall of encouragement. Nowadays, I have more opportunities to help others see the great that lies within. Maybe it’s because I’ve had a great deal of practice. No matter the reason, I am glad to help people think well of themselves.
I guess life is funny in that way. I mean, here I was, a guy who has struggled with self-acceptance issues most my my life, and here I am helping others. Yeah, life is funny: indeed.
Until Next time,
love & peace.