introvert-

noun: a shy person : a quiet person who does not find it easy to talk to other people

I’ve recently discovered that the above definition partially describes me.  I say only partially because I do have my moments of extroversion.  I can enjoy almost any activity alone, but lately, things have changed.

Growing up, I was the type of kid that wouldn’t let anything get me down.  I would always have a smile on my face, and a pep in my step.  While parts of these truths still ring true today, I have learned how to be very cautious around people.  As a part of my learning process, I keep to myself, observing.  I may not say much, but I’m always gleaning information.

Notwithstanding my introspection, I like meeting new people.  I like to know about their story and tell them about my own.  However, throughout my life, I’ve had a difficult time deciphering the wolf from the sheep.  This blind spot has sometimes left me feeling hurt and stagnant in trusting others.  Even with all of that, I still realize that I can’t go through life without people.

I’ve asked God many times, why am I fashioned in this way, but I have yet to receive a clear answer.  As I find out, I will continue to be.

Until next time.

💙+✌️

-Herbie