There’s a strange occurrence in my life: I have friends. Before you think I’m going nuts, just hear me out. I had a complex for much of my life: I thought that no one could out-give me, out of my group of friends. Honestly, I felt like no one could love like I could, and I felt cheated. I would ask God, “I’m a good friend. Don’t I deserve someone who can match my efforts?” While I have been waiting for His answer, I have come to this conclusion: Yes.
That’s not the half of it, though. The truth was that I attracted such people into my life. I couldn’t tell the double-agents from those who were true because I wasn’t whole. Through much prayer and work, God has made me whole. I can see things more clearly than I ever have and people who don’t belong in my life are simply falling away. This is an awesome feeling of which I do not know how to handle yet; Which brings me to my point.
Currently, the friends that I am surrounded by are those that reflect me: Non-judgmental, loving, caring and wholesome. They care for me as much as I care for them. They love me and my stuff. This speaks volumes to me because I always freely gave that type of love, but secretly thought I didn’t deserve it in return. These friends give with no strings attached or hidden agendas. I feel full of gratitude.
Maybe this is what’s meant by, “According to your faith, be it unto you,” (Matthew 9:29b KJV). This journey called life has me at a loss for words.
Until next time,
Love & Peace